At 16:40 p.m. on Thursday 30th September 2021, my world was turned on its head. I was in shock and plunged into deep depression. At that time, I thought I would never ever get a chance again to write a blog post, to apologise to people, to admit my mistakes, to understand different people’s perceptions. But I thank God and the decisions of others that I am alive and online today to write this.
At 12:oo p.m. on Monday 11th October 2021, I felt the same. I felt that my life was over. Something happened later that day that kept me alive and thinking positively. I was offline for about 12 days and there is a reason for that and the same reason why I feel sad.
I am sorry to anyone I hurt. I didn’t know I was hurting people. I didn’t mean to hurt anyone. I have remorse. I have regret. I wholeheartedly apologise. I am a man of pure peace, love and harmony.
I want the best for everyone out there but right now, I am in depression and it’s time for a break.
There won’t be a photo with this post, just a post. I really want to thank everyone for following this blog the last 5 years (well since December 2016). I have enjoyed sharing my life in Poland with you all. The time has come for me to withdraw from this blog for now. It might return someday. But right now, I have been offline for almost 2 weeks and I am not feeling good at all. I have some big problems in life to solve, which I am deeply sorry for, remorseful about and extremely sad about. I know that I am not the perfect man but I have a heart and I love to see everybody happy and healthy and I wish the best upon everybody. Right now, I am feeling extremely down, an all time low and I need time to understand it all. I have never felt worse than this in my life, so I must withdraw for now from the blog. Take care everyone!!! It was really fun, so I might keep the archives online. The website will stay online too.
Jonny Blair (Ulsterczyk, Northern Irishman in Poland).